Jan 5, 6 and 7. Busy times!

Hey everyone! Apologies for not posting anything sooner, its been mega busy here!

Coursework is due in on monday so ive been hitting that as hard as i can, also managed too lay laminate flooring downfor the first time ever, and i think its looking pretty good too say weve never done it before!

Anyway, im going too post something soon, im just not too sure when, so keep watcjing! 


Jan 4th

Does it ever feel like someone else is growing into what they should be and you arent?

How do you become what others need you to be?

I wish i had the answers but sadly i do not. It has come to my attention that, even though i have chosen a path in life (way too late, some might add) it dosent seem possible for me.

I feel my own burden weighing down upon my shoulders and despite my best efforts, i find myself lacking. All i want to do is make them happy, and yet instead i give them mistakes. No matter what i say, how i feel at any given moment, all i seem capable of doing is letting them down and they mean everything to me.

I dont know if she will ever read this, but if she does, i really want her too know that i love her so much that it burns my soul. I want nothing but good for her as that is what she truly deserves.

I try my hardest, but i lack the ability that she requires too truly brighten her soul. She is my light, were as i am an anchor keeping her grounded beneath what she could truly be.

Im sorry my love, for every pain, for every mistake i have made and truly sorry for not being able too love up too the man you though i could be.

I love you.

Jan 2nd 2017

So as i stand in my freezing cold kitchen, boxes still scatterred everywhere, rooms nowhere near assembled, im starting to stress over coursework that is steadily edging towards a deadline.

Its gonna be ok though, as soon as  we get this place a little more established im gonna hit it like a truck, or at least, thats the plan anyway…

Oh by the way, happy new year to you guys, i couldnt remember if i said it so ill say it again haha!

So as i said, im at uni now and studying writing which is going… Well? Yeah its going well. If days were 500 hours long i would have destroyed this course eith relative ease, however with only 24 available too me, its been a struggle.

When you have young kids, they’re very much the front of your attention so if illness happens, everything else stops. And its flu season.

So now im behind with personal deadlines, fatigued from night feeds, stressed about a house and unable too write as much as i want too.

Go me!

Anyway, if you liked this and are curious about whats happening or how else my life may be falling apart, please like share and follow as a crowd always helps!